THANK YOU FOR POSTING THE PHOTO, DOODS. I DON'T NEED TO TELL YOU, BUT WHAT ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS YOU HAVE
MY, BUT THEY ARE GLORIOUS! I ONLY HAVE THE ONE, CHRIS, WHO'S 32
THE ABILITY TO RAISE CHILDREN, AND RAISE THEM WELL MUST BE THE SINGLE GREATEST GIFT. I CAN BE ALL SENTIMENTAL AND GUSHING ABOUT IT BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THE TANTRUMS, THE SULKS, THE WORRIES, THE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, AND ALL THE OTHER "JOYS OF MOTHERHOOD" AS MY MOTHER USED TO CALL THE LESS THAN WONDERFUL THINGS
AT THIS POINT (41) I AM NOT EXPECTING ANY SUDDEN SURPRISES IN THAT DIRECTION. I HAD AN ECTOPIC PREGNANCY IN 1998 AND NOTHING SINCE THEN,THOUGH WAS TOLD I HAD A COUPLE OF "PROBABLE EARLY MISCARRIAGES", YOU KNOW, JUST A FEW WEEKS WHEN YOU HAVE NO IDEA ANYTHING IS HAPPENING. I HAVE BEEN SO LUCKY THAT WAY. I MEAN, IF I *HAVE* LOST 3 CHILDREN (GOD FORBID), I NEVER EVEN KNEW I WAS PREGNANT (EVEN WITH THE ECTOPIC), SO NEVER HAD ANY OF THE AWFUL HEARTBREAK. WITH THE ECTOPIC, IT WAS DISCOVERED AND SORTED *SO* FAST, I WAS JUST GLAD I DIDN'T DIE (BETWEEN THE ECTOPIC ITSELF, AND SOME INTERNAL BLEEDNG THROWN IN FOR GOOD MEASURE IT WAS APPARENTLY A CLOSE THING). ANYWAY, AFTER THAT, I HAD DRUG TREATMENT (CLOMID), BUT NO JOY. THEN WHEN THEY FINALLY GOT AROUND TO INSPECTING MY ONE REMAINING TUBE, I WAS TOLD IT WAS AT LEAST PARTIALLY BLOCKED, SO NOT TO GO PICKING BABY NAMES. I'D LOVE TO PROVE THE CONSULTANTS WRONG
BUT BETWEEN MY AGE AND THE M.S., THINGS ARE PROBABLY EXACTLY AS THEY SHOULD BE
I AM A BIT DOWN TODAY (CAN YOU TELL
), AS PROVEN TO ME BY THE ENTIRE 10-OUNCE TUB OF DOUBLE CREAM THAT I ATE. I DIDNT CATCH MYSELF UNTIL AFTERWARDS, AND THOUGHT, OOPS, HOW DID *THAT* HAPPEN? MY CONSOLATION IS THAT WHEN I "CHEAT", I CHEAT WITH ALLOWED FOODS, AND DON'T SEEM TO GO OFF ON BENDERS WITH "FORBIDDEN FRUITS".
WHAT GOT ME WAS MY NEW EXERCISE PLAN. I GOT OUT THE OXYCISE BOOK AND TAPES, AND STARTED READING THE BOOK. EASY PEASY, FINE, NO PROBLEM...UNTIL I STARTED IT
"NO IMPACT" IT IS CALLED. NO IMPACT? MECHTY, THERE MIGHT NOT BE ANY IMPACT, BUT IT IS FAIR EXHAUSTING! I COULDN'T EVEN GET THROUGH THE VERY FIRST 15-MINUTE WORKOUT. ALL THAT DEEP, DEEP BREATHING MADE ME SO DIZZY AND SHAKY I WAS HAVING TO LITERALLY SIT DOWN BEWTEEN REPS, TO RECOVER AND GET "UNDIZZY". SO, I MANAGED ABOUT HALF OF THE FIRST "15-MINUTE WORKOUT", AND IT TOOK ME HALF-AN-HOUR! THE NEXT THING I KNEW, I WAS LOOKING AT THE BOTTOM OF A FORMERLY FULL TUB OF CREAM! GOSH, HAVEN'T DONE *THAT* IN AWHILE
SO, MAYBE I NEED TO RETHINK THE OXYCISE. I HAVE A FEW EXERCISE VIDEOS OF ONE TYPE OR ANOTHER-HAVEN'T TRIED THE BELLYDANCING ONE YET
STILL, 7.5 MINUTES OF A 15-MINUTE WORKOUT IS THAT MUCH MORE EXERCISE THAN I DID YESTERDAY
SORRY TO BE NEGATIVE; IT ANNOYS ME
YOU'RE DOING GREAT, OUR DOODS. KEEP IT UP!
YOU'RE RIGHT ABOUT LEAVING BFL FOR A WEEK; I'LL WORK UP TO IT. HEY, MAYBE ONE OF MY FIVE GOALS SHOULD BE ACTUALLY GETTING TO THE POINT WHERE I CAN START IT
HOPE THIS WASN'T TOO PERSONAL!