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Originally Posted by surfnmom
I am so disgusted with myself. I think I would rather be an alcoholic then a food-oholic. You don't have to have booze to live. But you do have to eat. Once I start eating thats all I do. Nothing gets done, my only thoughts are (what else can I put in my mouth. My whole life is center around food.
starting tonight I will have my supper, and then fast until super the next day. I just don't want to deal with food anymore. I am so tired of being sick to my stomach, bloated, tired, and consumed about eating. I played around with the one meal a day and felt great, but like with an alcoholic one slip up and I get food drunk and don't care, until I pass out from all the sugar.
The doc told me a few years ago that I suffer from Reactive hypoglycemia, which causes me to feel like I starving, then gorge, sleep and do it again. I burn up my insulin real quick. He suggested 6 small meals a day to keep my insulin level throuh out the day. Will needless to say 6 meals have turned into One continues day long feeding. Not Working.
Sorry to dump, but I just feel so helpless, I Have always looked to this site and saw so may people overcome there eating issues and gain control. I feel happy for them and yet Im so envyous. Again don't mean to dump my load, and I am hopeful that this will be my way back to a normal life.
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Cheryl, ya gotta stop beating yourself up, Babe!
Dont think for a single moment that any successful LC/IF'er woke up one morning and decided " Today I am going to start eating Low-Carb and combining it with Intermittant Fasting and do it PERFECTLY! " At least in my case, it took a lot of practice-- and I am still "practicing."
When you fall off the wagon, just say to yourself that you will try again and just keep trying and not give up no matter how long it takes. A lot of us have had to do it and then one fine day, something "clicks" and it works.
Dont be impatient with yourself and just try always to keep in mind that you are cursed with a chemical imbalance in your body and it has nothing to do with willpower or character, or being good or bad. I have faced a similar situation (altho not as severe as yours) and a lot of others here at ALCF have probably done that, too.
Eventually, eating "clean" will feel so good that it will get easier to ignore the temptations and eating urges and you will stop and think before you start abusing your body again.
One thing that has helped me a lot is that I have been reading the IF threads for a long time--actually, several months. (My screen name ought to be Lurker Girl) I went all the way back to the beginning of the IF threads and began to read and read and read. These threads are fascinating and I became almost obsessed with reading and learning from those who have been successful with this WOL. I look at the original weight readings of some of these people and am just blown away by their success and their dedication. (In fact I have spent so much time here with Ottawa and Stuart and jessperth and gwynne 2 and the others that I fear my husband may start wondering if he ought to sue me for desertion.)
This whole board is my security blanket and my "college education" in healthy living. Just read and read and read and stay here with people who can help you back to the road to good health. That's what they are doing for me. And it is working! I eat better, I feel better, and my clothes fit better--what more could I ask. Hmmm, maybe a piece of 3 minute chocolate cake or some of Cleo-chatra's goodies--but they will come all in good time. (And by the way, if you suffer from a really wild and crazy sweet tooth, check out some of the recipes for goodies that wont get you going down the Road To Carb Ruin)
Good luck, and Stick With Us, Kid!--we wont steer you wrong or let you give up!