thanks for the suggestions on other books... i will check the library for em
cheesy- dont feel bad about 'cheating'. if anything, you should feel relieved that you got through it and you came out ok. you didnt go crazy. i think that restricting yourself to never cheat is really setting yourself up for a binge. you have to eat things you crave from time to time... just learn to do it in moderation and control yourself. im sure you'll be fine... as long as you dont allow your fears to overcome you. you have tremendous self control and are a smart girl, you'll do fine. life is not over. nothing is different today than it was a week ago... unless you allow it to be- and i dont think you will. u haven't failed, you've liberated yourself, and you should take from that experience that its ok to 'cheat' as long as you remain in control ((hugs))
mil- it took me so long to admit i had an 'eating disorder'. with me, i dont think its the food thats my problem, its my emotions. i dont blame the food or think i can never eat a cookie again or it would be all over... because to me, that would just be avoiding the emotions, like avoiding the cookie. i think alot of alcoholics do that too... they blame the alcohol rather than blame the emotions or the reaction to emotions. i think with food, the more u avoid it, the more stress and tension you cause yourself, and u set yourself up to binge. but thats just my opinion of my particular case... obviously, every1 is different.
food WILL sometimes trigger a binge *if* i let it, tho. like zipetys experience with the macadamia nuts. but if that was me, i was probably eating them out of boredum to begin with, or for oral satisfaction rather than because i was really hungry. and thats something else i need to work on.
i can relate to you so much sun... when i cheat, its usually planned. i allow myself to do it, know the consequences, yet do it anyways... like, i usually cheat on cheesecake. it tastes SO good, its not the worst thing for you, it can be made LC, BUT im lactose intolerant, so, it makes me sick. but i eat it anyways. stupid stupid stupid. and everytime i say im not going to do that again, but i always do.
ack- i know i rambled alot here... i hope i make sense