Tue, Oct-01-19, 06:31
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Posts: 59
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Plan: Atkins Inductionish
Stats: 320/226/190
BF:
Progress: 72%
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Hello all! I have been such a slacker on the reading and for sure the posting.
First, the good news. I am back from TX and weighing in at 233.4, which is actually a weight loss while I was gone and living on takeout food.
Now the bad, mom didn't do well while I was gone. My fears were realized and she didn't eat right, she had several bathroom accidents that no one took the stuff down to the washer, and in general she looks rough. Her oxygen levels are actually pretty good, but she is very tired and when I look at her while I am talking I just keep saying in my head "this isn't my mom".
I can't describe it well but it's like her spark is gone and she is fading. I spoke with her doctors on speaker phone for an hour last week while I was in TX and said you have to hear that she isn't really following your conversation, what's causing that. They said her blood pressure dropping but mom and I both live at around 90 over 50 on a normal day, there isn't far for her to drop. Meanwhile if she moves her oxygen levels drop very far, but they said that's not the cause....I call bologna on that one. They also said it's just a progression of the pulmonary hypertension disease.
I spoke with mom this weekend because I needed to know where her head really was. She's making plans to take the kids to Disney during February break and to my uncles beach house next summer and she's sharing this news with her brothers and I'm just shaking my head like HUH? She can barely get out of the house, what am I missing. She finally admitted she's just trying to be positive but she knows she is fading and it won't be long, but she likes her world of denial.
I called her brothers and told them if they want to talk to her, like REALLY her, they should get here in the next couple weeks. They of course argued with me that she sounds fine, all I could say was "Listen, believe me or don't believe me, I'm on the ground here and I'm telling you if you want to see her you should come soon". All three of her brothers were on route when their mother passed...why...because they insisted on not believing the truth and by the time they got to GA it was too late. My job is to send up the alert, I've done that, the rest is up to them.
Sorry for the long post, guess I'm just making up for lost time.
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