Fri, May-11-12, 12:53
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Senior Member
Posts: 822
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Plan: Evolving and learning
Stats: 226/144/130
BF:
Progress: 85%
Location: Canada
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Let me buy your bikini!
I am not thin. Obviously. I am DONE with trying on 50+ suits that I find matronly on me. This year I want a 2 piece. We usually swim alone, anyway, in secluded river spots, but even if we didn't... I want a 2 piece.
This seems counter culture. Trying to find a top with underwire was interesting. Not only because the sales women insisted that those don't exist (what a crock; they obviously have never seen Victorias Secret -- maybe its still a secret to them!), but because they kept steering me toward tankinis (which look horrible on me), saying things like, "you're sure you want a bikini top?!"
Or, "you're sure you're a size ___?"
YES. I am SURE.
I am equally "sure" I will never be rid of my stretch marks and scars from having a baby and having fun (sport/paintball). I am "sure" that my saggy breasts, having nursed a child, need underwire, not a flimsy piece of string. I am "sure" that I'm valued, loved, and confident with my body, maybe not wholly, but enough to be in a two piece in front of a person who has seen EVERY piece of me.
Then, they showed me the full piece suits (no underwire anyway).
It made me feel awful! Why is it so hard to believe that someone built like me would want a two piece?
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