I hear you, and I'm so glad you are there.... no one has judged me for taking so long to come around to this WOE either, you know... I think I had felt ashamed for a long time, and some of that guilt and shame fueled my eating every time I thought about dieting.
I have to get over myself, I know.... yeah OK I spent the last 11 or so years being fat and miserable when I could have been thin, but you know, I was sooo cocky when I was in OA in those days. And self righteous and a know it all... this past decade has been so humbling, I am actually so grateful for the life experience gained. Yeah maybe I could have done sooner and been smarter about it... but, I didn't, so there ! <g> I am here now, I am showing up today and sticking to the plan... and knowing I am human, and should I make a slip, that is just part of the path and I still need to keep going, not faltering.
I am still full of fear - day 5 of induction level for me, and so I don't know for sure that the weight is coming off yet - but you know, it has worked for lots of people, I have to trust that I am not that different that the thousands of people who have lost weight low carbing.... even if it doesn't come off as quicklly as I want it to (I needed to say that for me!)
And you know, I feel better than I have in a whilel, anyway, and my meals are so fun! Eggs and bacon beats out a bowl of oatmeal, any old day!
The hardest thing, I need to own this too... is not to immediately try and convert everyone around me to this WOE... I am trying to be more silent about it, but I love to talk and so its hard... someone is trying to convince me to go back on the shakes regimen and I am trying not to get into long discussions about it with her... also I have several friends who are diabetic and hypoglycemic who are very down on Atkins and right now I have to just keep my mouf shut! When I am down to 200 and they ASK me what I have been doing, THEN it will be the time to tell them....
-misty