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Originally Posted by Groovegirl
I've learned that if I'm not craving meat, it's not real hunger, it's emotional and I need to get my emotions in check.
Wow - I was just flipping through this thread and came across this quote. I think it just saved me. I'm sitting here in my cube, listening to the celebration for a woman I work with who just got promoted for the 4th time. She and I started at the same time, seven years ago. We are very similar, but I have not been promoted once. She just seems to know how to claw to the top, where as I do a very good job, but nothing seems to come of it. My first reaction was, screw the diet, I'm going to the bakery across the street to get out of here and get whatever I want. Now I'm sitting here, letting myself feel the hurt. This really hurts.... we both had babies over the past year and she can provide so much more than I can. Now I'm in tears...
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Seems like I've had a month like that. I am a college student a semster away from graduating and I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I have ideas and options, but it's the scariest place I've been in in my life.
My boyfriend and I had lunch about an hour ago, and he told me he thinks I have a stress problem/ emotional problem - NOT a binge eating problem. I don't binge when I'm relaxed, when I've had a fairly easy week. It's only when I'm under high anxiety or stress that I binge eat or eat off plan. My problem is stress/anxiety - eating the wrong food is a side effect. When I am craving sweets or other junk it's something with my emotions brewing , not hunger.
My boyfriend and I made a game plan: I call or text him when I get cravings, or when I'm being antsy to get off plan. Here is the breakdow. Of defeating cheats plan:
- Breathing: Count to 50, breath deep, clear your mind.
- Visualization: I picture myself in a bikini, in Fiji, on my honeymoon
- Distraction: what events am I looking forward to? That movie date? A trip?
- Call/ text for support; talk out what is bothering me at the moment.
So this is my plan. I'm tired of making this transition harder than it has to be. I gave up carbs like I gave up smoking, spending money recklessly, just like any other habit. My new habits are letting myself feel my emtions without self medicating with food, and following through on the promises to myself.
I deserve to be thin - to look on the outside how I feel on the inside.