First I am a man but because my mother critised my weight from at least
when I was 5 years old I grew up thinking no woman could like me if I am
fat. Partly because there is some truth in that and mostly because I felt
so lousy about being fat I never date unless I am thin. Besides fealing better
about my self when I am thin my stuttering almost clears up. So this patern
started I would lose weight, start dating and get in a relationship then put
some of the weight back on. I then get irritable and my fluent speech and the girl are gone.

This has happened over and over and a part of me is scared that if I lose
weight I will get in another relationship like the one that told me " I miss you
I love you and by the way the engagement is off I am marrying someone else
next week" Or the one who dumped me because someone rapped her. Or the
one that left a week after her suicide attempt. There have been a few more
like that. The last couple of times I started to lose weight I got scared and
put it right back on not because of hunger just scared. Well I started back losing and prehaps facing the fear I won't chicken out.

I think this might have a little more to do with the women you choose to date than your weight. You deserve to be with someone who is not "broken" and doesn't need "fixing." Granted, this is from only one post on the internet, but you might want to look for a pattern there. BTW I have been the "psycho girlfriend" so I speak from that point of view.

never a more true sentence

you have to do it for you, because you want it, you are in control for the most part

if you starting eating healthily, do a little exercise and drop the weight you will feel a lot more positive and this will show in your personality and people will be more receptive to you because you will be radiating positivity or in my case "maximum awesomeness"

My friend at work is always having ago at me because when ever she finds me there are always women flirting with me lol