Hey ladies- my rocks my safest.
I am going to start off with anything other than me!!!!!!
Thank goodness Beatty has you and hubby in her life. We all would be so blessed to have that person as we all age! You are such a blessing for her! Awesome you cleaned up at the store! I know it is a relief to have a stocked fridge. I always feel better. Ya never know.
Look at you go- runner!!!!! - I know you felt better getting that time out run in!!!!!!!!
for keeping me close in thoughts. That means so much!
I am in TOTAL support of you unplugging for awhile!!!!!
Plus increasing your movement and you are right- cooler temps = better sleep!!!!!!!
I love beef stew. I prefer a thinker soup over a thinner soup..... ie chili. It just feels so homey and warm and satisfying!
I know you all are IN for the next month. Just chalk it up and use this time for you!!!! Self care I love it!
- Hey - I hope you got some much needed rest from all those friends you talk about calling you! Nothing wrong at all from limiting those calls. They can be exhausting!!!!!!
You have a big one!
Hoping your back feels better! Does anything help????????
Hope you spent today writing your heart out!!!!
- glad all is good where you are! Stay put and be safe.
Well.......... where to start. Started off today again with tears......
Sucked it up and went to work. I walked in behind two C-19 patients being wheeled in on stretchers. Both young- 40-50. One was a woman hysterical crying and her mask was falling off. I was standing right in back of her.
I took my mask in but was not yet wearing it. There are not enough masks. The order is is you get C-19 we are to STILL come to work as long as I am not with fever.
We have the national guard now at our hospital as they are manning the "white Tent party" of Moderate c-19 out front while we inside are dealing with makeshifts ICU's.
They are moving out all stable patient to different outlier hospitals so we can build more ICU beds.
My unit is now converted to C-19 as well. So much for a clean unit. they are discharging all the heart patients to nursing homes and building more ICU beds on my unit. I was DRENCHED in C-19 today. It is what it is.
I'm f'd. I will either survive or I won't. During work I was shadowing my preceptor who was crying because her brother is an ICU Doctor in Jersey. He went from bedside to vent in an hour.
Meanwhile I am talking to my daughter who was giving more meds and her test of course was positive. My son is recovering and doing better.
While I am sitting on the floor- 3 more people died in the c-19 "ZONE". I heard it on the over head. Then we looked it up- we can because we cover all areas. They died. Only one was "older over 80.
I am LIVING the news right now. I prayed to keep my shit together today. It is a war zone. I am having some PSD issues right now. Not sleeping well.
I come home- grab whatever is in fridge. Glad I had enough sense to cook large over the weekend. I am drained.
I am only day 2. I feel like it has been so much longer.
I stopped to try to find Zinc on my way home. I sent you a video about a doctor treating people with success. If you can get past his few comment in politics and listen to what he is doing I felt positive about that. -
NO zinc on any shelf. I stopped 3 places (mask on) on my way home to find Zinc. Nope.
Anyway, I was in Walgreens and this lady who was dressed in pajamas and crying standing in the vitamin isle kept dropping stuff. I told her she dropped a sock on the floor. She explained she had elderly parents in her house and was so scared and could not find gloves or anything for them she busted out in tears. I told her I had gloves in my car if she needed some.
She cried more- She followed me to my car. I handed her about 20 pair and a bottle of hand sanitizer. She goes OMG your a nurse- an angel - I busted into tears. Told her to be safe and sped away. I am just doing what one human does for another - or should. We are in this together.
We need to pass more kindness to each other. We all are walking in shoes that others don't know.
I have come to being almost out of tears. I am resolved to whatever comes I will handle what I can. What I can't I can't. I am getting through one day at a time.
I find it hard to believe that some people are still so ..... I have no words........... I just can't reconcile it in my head. This is why so many states are now shut down- people are ignoring this. OK- I am done..........
I ate on my WOE today- but truly I just didn't care. I ate something to put something in my stomach. Meatballs- and was done. Not because I cared today- least of my concern.
I am hoping I care tomorrow.
Not now- popping a glass of wine. Just one, - more than that it kills my sleep.
Have a safe evening