I've lost about 56lbs now. So you'd think that'd make my husband happy, right? No. I gained all this weight between two pregnancies. The first pregnancy I lost as it was a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. I was really depressed between the two pregnancies because of that (About 6 months) and that's how I gained so much weight, really. Anyhow, now I'm about 12lbs from what I weighed when we got married.

So my husband and I don't really have sex anymore. We never really did it much in the first place, but now it's like maybe once every 2-3 months. He told me the other night that "a significant reason" why he doesn't have sex with me is my weight and that he's not attracted to me. That was upsetting. I asked him what about the weight I was at when we started dating (I was 166, but a size 8) and he said he felt I was actually overweight then too and not all that attractive. Last week he actually turned on the tv and pointed out women that I need to aspire to look like since I'm losing weight anyway.

This is absolutely killing my self esteem. I don't really know how to even put it into words because it's so upsetting for me. I just don't have the words for it.

I just don't know how to deal with this.