I'm sorry about your loss. Reading it brought tears to my eyes. 6 yrs ago, my kitty got sick, he ended up having bladder problems. We did everything out vet told us to do, and a year later had to put him down. I cried for weeks, my hB thought I was crazy. I still cry when I see his pic or something reminds me of him, like right now. I've had several kitties since, I've loved them all but non of them have been my true kitty love.

You can do it, food really isn't all that conforting, it just passes the time and gives you something to do. You'll feel like crap later and be even more upset with yourself.