Hi Kingwood! That took a great deal of courage to not only look at that, acknowledge it, but write it down....commit it to "paper". Many of us have deep-seated issues with being overweight all of our lives... many painful feelings and emotions that have never been dealt with properly. Stay with this and dig a little deeper.... buy some self-help books if you think it might help to bring all your thoughs and feelings to the surface and find new and appropriate ways to validate and love yourself just the way you are....in any shape or form.

We're here for you! Hang out on this forum for a while....there's some really, really GREAT people here!

PS - I'm on the west side of Houston.... maybe someday we can meet for lunch!