* white toast + butter + sweet jam (thick layer) + 1 big slice of salted cheese.
I always liked the combination between sweet and salt. I read that taste gives you more cravings.

* pancakes + thick layer of butter + jam, folded like a sandwich.

* hot pancakes + sugar powder, layered like a mini cake to melt the sugar

* simply just jars of jam (<-- please, notice the plural form)

Ok, now I'm really ashamed!

I have a personal dairy in which I wrote exactly what I felt in those moments. When I read it occasional, I feel compassion for "that poor girl". I can see those were the worst moments in my life. I even intended suicide.

Ok, now I really sound crazy. But I was just depressed.