*sigh*

the thought of that depresses me so much...like after i do all that work i'll still feel ugly until i can have surgery...the price of which i could never afford, nor could i afford the time off i'd need for recovery...

i know i should just get off the subject...it's not helping me right now...

but i wish the skin would just go back...

but damage is damage, i suppose...and i did it...so it's not undeserved...