Hello Divaveda,
I'm an alcoholic too.
The hardest thing I ever done was to admit that.
But that is the first step to recovery. Get to some meetings. They are so much a part of recovery, also get a sponser.
It was so hard for me to just stop drinking. I finally got to a point that I knew that I had to. I'm sure everyone has their own point to where they know that the drinking just has to stop.
I had some terrible things happen that I won't go into details here but I am so glad that I am alive and I still have my family. My family respects me now that I have stopped drinking.
You can't do it alone. You need the support of others that have been there.
Delphoene, it does get easier but I still have my days. It will be a constant battle but one well worth it.
I have been sober a little over 10 months and I know I can't be at a social event where there is liquor. I don't know if I will ever be ready for that but I know I'm not yet. I have turned down many invitations and I'm sure I will turn down many more in the future.
That has made me so proud of myself and I do get a little stronger everyday.
Good luck to you both.