RubySpider,

I'm sorry you feel so low.

Your'e lucky your family is so supportive in so many ways.

I'm happy that you can see what the effects of carbs have on you and how the emotional pull of the carb binge and its numbing effects work on your emotional state.

You are going to make it all the way down to goal because you are aware of that connection. You now know what you are doing to yourself in a conscience sense.

Really -- that is progress.