Cig companies have increased the nicotine in their products by 11% in just the last 7 years. So don't beat yourself up. Just knowing you are XACTLY where they want you to be without having to disclose to the public should make you mad enough to quit. Yes I was a 2 a day packer and then I went to social smoking and I am now free for over 10 years. My sweetie quit after smoking for over 40 years. Cold turkey. He is now 4 weeks free and counting. You can do it too. Good luck.