I know what you mean, there needs to be a middle ground of caring and not. Maybe some can find that, I can't. It isn't as bad as it used to be for me. I can relax a bit. But really, there isn't a time in the day when it doesn't cross my mind. Even in my dreams. It's a pain. Even at this weight, I don't know how my boyfriend touches me. He knows I feel that way.

I just wish there was a day where I can not care about food. You know? Not care about the image, my image. I think it has taken alot of my personality away. I used to be fun loving, laughing. Now I am serious about everything, and a bit stressed. My health, I am sure, is much better than it was 70 pounds ago. I wouldn't change my low carb life for the one I had before. Even though the amount of food I am eating is scary.