tinkshrink
Mon, Sep-05-11, 17:42
Hello everyone.
My name is Tina and I'm a 28 year old mama of two beautiful children, 4 years old and 8 months old. I'm also a nursing student, working on my Bachelors in Nursing Science degree, and I work at a local hospital a few times a month. Needless to say, I stay pretty busy.
In addition to my above stated activities I have another...eating! I am currently at my all time high weight of 215lbs and I'm miserable. I've decided to put my faith in a low carb diet as I saw success on it many years ago. At the time I was only on it to support a ex, so I didn't take it very seriously and did not stay on it when we parted ways. But now here I am, so overweight that my 4 year old has pointed out,"Mama, you're fat!" and most recently, "mama you have a big bottom!!" (this was yelled when I took her into a dressing room, where the pants I was trying on ended up being too small despite them being a size 18, I wanted to go home curl up and die.)
Recently we took a family vacation to the beautiful Hawaiian Islands. Most of the trip I was so embarrassed because I knew I was one of the heavier ladies on the beach. I love shopping but refused to go into clothing stores because I didn't want to deal with the embarrassment that they wouldn't have large enough sizes for me. I currently wear a 16/18 depending on the brand. designer labels don't happen to come in those sizes. I knew I was embarrassed and uncomfortable, but somehow I found stuffing my face with rich dishes and desserts most comforting (i have a love affair with pasta, pasta, pasta!). In my head, if i couldn't spend my money on the clothes, i'd spend my money on the food because i somehow deserved it.
When we got home i downloaded the pictures off the camera and was horrified by the pictures. especially the one of me in my two peice bathing suit with my gut hanging between my tank top and shorts. I've had enough. I want to change. I NEED to change my ways! This isn't just about losing wieght anymore but feeling better. I'm always tired, and I don't want to continue setting such a terrible example for my children. I'm hoping to find support here among others with similar goals. I plan to launch head first into this endeavor on 9/9/11. I'm waiting until a friday to start so I won't be at school or work when I go through the sugar/caffine withdrawls I know are coming. Also, this give me the rest of the week to stock up on meals so I have no excuses to fail.
Thank you for taking the time to read this! I look forward to getting to know others!
My name is Tina and I'm a 28 year old mama of two beautiful children, 4 years old and 8 months old. I'm also a nursing student, working on my Bachelors in Nursing Science degree, and I work at a local hospital a few times a month. Needless to say, I stay pretty busy.
In addition to my above stated activities I have another...eating! I am currently at my all time high weight of 215lbs and I'm miserable. I've decided to put my faith in a low carb diet as I saw success on it many years ago. At the time I was only on it to support a ex, so I didn't take it very seriously and did not stay on it when we parted ways. But now here I am, so overweight that my 4 year old has pointed out,"Mama, you're fat!" and most recently, "mama you have a big bottom!!" (this was yelled when I took her into a dressing room, where the pants I was trying on ended up being too small despite them being a size 18, I wanted to go home curl up and die.)
Recently we took a family vacation to the beautiful Hawaiian Islands. Most of the trip I was so embarrassed because I knew I was one of the heavier ladies on the beach. I love shopping but refused to go into clothing stores because I didn't want to deal with the embarrassment that they wouldn't have large enough sizes for me. I currently wear a 16/18 depending on the brand. designer labels don't happen to come in those sizes. I knew I was embarrassed and uncomfortable, but somehow I found stuffing my face with rich dishes and desserts most comforting (i have a love affair with pasta, pasta, pasta!). In my head, if i couldn't spend my money on the clothes, i'd spend my money on the food because i somehow deserved it.
When we got home i downloaded the pictures off the camera and was horrified by the pictures. especially the one of me in my two peice bathing suit with my gut hanging between my tank top and shorts. I've had enough. I want to change. I NEED to change my ways! This isn't just about losing wieght anymore but feeling better. I'm always tired, and I don't want to continue setting such a terrible example for my children. I'm hoping to find support here among others with similar goals. I plan to launch head first into this endeavor on 9/9/11. I'm waiting until a friday to start so I won't be at school or work when I go through the sugar/caffine withdrawls I know are coming. Also, this give me the rest of the week to stock up on meals so I have no excuses to fail.
Thank you for taking the time to read this! I look forward to getting to know others!