Mmylerkee
Sun, Apr-07-02, 11:47
Hello there! My name is Meagan, and I'm a 26 year old mom of two darling little girls. I've done the LC WOE before, but slacked off. Now I'm starting over. Here's a little bit of my story....
In HS, I was a nice, proportional 145 at the most. Pretty good for me since I'm 5'7" with heavy Norweigan bone structure. I was always busy, so never had time to eat properly, my statple was cherry poptarts and cherry coke during my senior year, so I can only imagine how thin I would have been had I acutally eaten healthy.
I went into the Air Force, and went up to 150, but actually slimmed down, all my weight converted from fat to muscle mass. I married, had a horrible short marriage, and as we were divorcing I went down to 135 in a matter of weeks because of all the stress. It was the thinnest I'd ever been in my life, but physically I felt GREAT.
I was 138 when I got pregnant with my first daughter, Bethany. Over the course of my pregnancy I gained 100 pounds. I lost about 75 of that within a few months of having her, but I never got below 160. I got pregnant again when she was 14 months, and I was at 185. During my second pregnancy I ballooned up to 245. I again got down to about 185 after giving birth, but it didn't last long.
I had never been on BCP before my first pregnancy, and my doctor convinced me that I "needed" to be on it afterward. (Yeah, ,and it worked so well too! :rolleyes: ) I'm sure that this was one of several reasons I've gained so much weight and haven't been able to lose it.
I was back on BCP after my second pregnancy, and yet again got pregnant while on the pill. This pregnancy ended in a badly ruptured ectopic. Within just a few months I gained 55 pounds, I was up to 250. Depression made matters worse, I'm an emotional eater and seek solace in carbs.
I'm tired of looking into the mirror and not recognizing the woman that I see there. Even after a few years of being heavy, I'm still taken aback when I actually SEE myself. I recently saw some video of myself from Christmas morning, and as I walked across the screen my "tummy flap" could be seen bouncing. UGH. At the end of January my husband and I went to Hawaii with his family. I had difficulty even getting the seatbelt across my tummy when we were on the plane. I saw the pictures of us from the trip, and again I didn't recognize myself.
I'm tired of not being happy with who I am. I am NOT a fat woman. I'm Meagan, mom to Beth and Catey, wife to Brian, friend to some wonderful people. I don't want FAT to be my identity. I want the world (and the camera :o ) to see me for who I really am. I want to be happy and content with myself again.
So here I am. I'm starting up on the Zone, slightly modified with CALP. I've got my membership at the YMCA and intend to use it at LEAST four times a week, if not more often. (When I actually get up and get exercising, I love it, it's just that whole motivation thing....) I weighed myself last night, expecting to see that I was at 260 or so, and was THRILLED to see I was "only" 239. So, only 89 more to go!!!!!
I'm so glad somebody pointed me to this forum, and I really look forward to all the support and friendship that I can see is so prevalent here.
Blessings to all!!!!
In HS, I was a nice, proportional 145 at the most. Pretty good for me since I'm 5'7" with heavy Norweigan bone structure. I was always busy, so never had time to eat properly, my statple was cherry poptarts and cherry coke during my senior year, so I can only imagine how thin I would have been had I acutally eaten healthy.
I went into the Air Force, and went up to 150, but actually slimmed down, all my weight converted from fat to muscle mass. I married, had a horrible short marriage, and as we were divorcing I went down to 135 in a matter of weeks because of all the stress. It was the thinnest I'd ever been in my life, but physically I felt GREAT.
I was 138 when I got pregnant with my first daughter, Bethany. Over the course of my pregnancy I gained 100 pounds. I lost about 75 of that within a few months of having her, but I never got below 160. I got pregnant again when she was 14 months, and I was at 185. During my second pregnancy I ballooned up to 245. I again got down to about 185 after giving birth, but it didn't last long.
I had never been on BCP before my first pregnancy, and my doctor convinced me that I "needed" to be on it afterward. (Yeah, ,and it worked so well too! :rolleyes: ) I'm sure that this was one of several reasons I've gained so much weight and haven't been able to lose it.
I was back on BCP after my second pregnancy, and yet again got pregnant while on the pill. This pregnancy ended in a badly ruptured ectopic. Within just a few months I gained 55 pounds, I was up to 250. Depression made matters worse, I'm an emotional eater and seek solace in carbs.
I'm tired of looking into the mirror and not recognizing the woman that I see there. Even after a few years of being heavy, I'm still taken aback when I actually SEE myself. I recently saw some video of myself from Christmas morning, and as I walked across the screen my "tummy flap" could be seen bouncing. UGH. At the end of January my husband and I went to Hawaii with his family. I had difficulty even getting the seatbelt across my tummy when we were on the plane. I saw the pictures of us from the trip, and again I didn't recognize myself.
I'm tired of not being happy with who I am. I am NOT a fat woman. I'm Meagan, mom to Beth and Catey, wife to Brian, friend to some wonderful people. I don't want FAT to be my identity. I want the world (and the camera :o ) to see me for who I really am. I want to be happy and content with myself again.
So here I am. I'm starting up on the Zone, slightly modified with CALP. I've got my membership at the YMCA and intend to use it at LEAST four times a week, if not more often. (When I actually get up and get exercising, I love it, it's just that whole motivation thing....) I weighed myself last night, expecting to see that I was at 260 or so, and was THRILLED to see I was "only" 239. So, only 89 more to go!!!!!
I'm so glad somebody pointed me to this forum, and I really look forward to all the support and friendship that I can see is so prevalent here.
Blessings to all!!!!