Sat, Jan-19-13, 20:47
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Posts: 90
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Plan: Atkins
Stats: 265/181/145
BF:
Progress: 70%
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No, I'm not that other Fat Girl.
I'm incredibly frustrated. Several times in my life, I have found myself associating with some heavy girl with a similar hair style, and suddenly people *really* can't tell us apart. It's one thing to make an honest mistake when people look similar, but I'm talking about, someone I've known for several years wondering why I haven't looked up at them 10 minutes into their monologue when they've addressed me by the wrong name.
Not only is it incredibly insulting, frankly, these people are usually much heavier than I am. Now, I know, there's like scientific research to back up the idea that we see ourselves MUCH less critically than we see others, and I've certainly been shocked in photos in my life... So, maybe, here and there, I looked a LOT like the person they were comparing me to.
Um. But I've lost nearly 100 pounds now. People are still mixing me up with the same 300 pound girl they were mixing me up with years ago. I've changed my hair, uh, specifically because of this. We carry ourselves completely different; professionally I work circles around her; she has this meek, mild whisper for a voice while I'm on the verge of "too loud" with my assertiveness and clarity... I'm not trying to smack talk. She didn't do anything wrong. But I'm NOTHING like her, and I just can't believe it.
It's not even about appearance anymore. I'm just starting to get the feeling that all fat people are just completely invisible to everyone else in the world. I feel completely written off and ignored. The idea that I could know someone for years; remember that 2 weeks ago, they looked really upset about something; follow up about their sick dog with them... and they could have a conversation with me for several minutes and not realize which fat girl I am. You know. Out of the two that are like 150 pounds apart. Jeez. It really infuriates me.
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