I always meant to come back, honest. Unfortunately, I [still] find it difficult to be around the success of others when my own prospects are slim (see what I did there?) and nearly none. Not pretty, but true.

In other news, I have found that cheese slows things up even more. My doctor (a naturopath I switched to after getting very poor care at a regular clinic) wants me to lay off dairy entirely, which would be easy if I cooking only for myself. Both my son and my husband eat cheese, though.

Also, I've decided the only way to stop eating wheat (even in small amounts, like a cracker that my son hasn't eaten) is to tell myself that it's poison to me. Each and every time. Sometimes I have to say it aloud. I grew up poor, am still poor, and find it very difficult to throw food I can't eat away. My husband hates vegetables apart from broccoli, brussels sprouts, peas, and potatoes, while my son (he's 2) doesn't seem to worry about any food apart from raisins.

My food stamps were cut by $40 a month, which has also taken it's toll. I'm thinking I might spend the entire lot and buy a month's worth of meat at a tme, that way I'd be guaranteed to eat well for at least 3 weeks. Right?

Anyway, that's what's going on with me...

ETA: I can't believe I didn't realize I was only 40lbs from goal when I went off plan. Admittedly I'd been stalled for over a year, but still - how the heck did I forget what my goal was in the first place?!

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