Hello All
My goodness, I must be the oldest person here.
I'm 66 and I have 153 lbs. to discard.
Being 66 is great, I suppose because I don't feel 66 or act 66. My students (I'm an Art teacher) are shocked at my real age and don't actually believe it
. My grandkidds call me 'Cool Grandma'.
I am thrilled to be alive! SSoooo how come I weigh 318? Good question.
I have tried for many years to figure out that answer.....no luck!
Dr. Phil (Oprah show) says, "What are you getting out of being fat?" That just made me angry but still no answer.
Then I am reading along in the previous messages and WHAM!
They made me remember things that I had 'pushed back' in my memory since I was 4 or 5 years old.
Molested as a small child..I was raised to think that sex was 'dirty' and only for marriage. Then that would be my goal, 'save' myself for my husband or never get married. I was molested and nearly date-raped on several occasions. I walked home from many dates. The boys in school had a 'bet' out on who would be first. I soon trusted no one and I began to put on a 'protector' of fat. I was still being approached and was treated as a 'challenge'. I quit dating guys who lived in this area. Put on more weight and met my future husband when I weighed 165. We married 45 years ago and had 3 wonderful kids. I had done it!! I had 'saved myself' for my husband. Why wasn't my life suddenly 'normal' and happy? duh!
My 'memories' haunted me and I became even fatter. Several car wrecks later (none my fault) plus Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis etc., I am having to take so many meds. 11 pills in the am and 11 in the pm. about 99% of them cause weight gain. I've complained to my doctor at the VA
(I'm ex-Navy) and he says "I know."
Now I understand a whole lot more about myself, thanks to your open honesty.
Thank God that I got a wonderful, loving and very patient man who loves me no matter what size I am. "I married you, not your size!" he says. I was blessed with him. After many shaky years we get along wonderfully well now. I still have the sex taboo back in my head but I know it now and I work at 'getting real' and it's slowly but surely getting better.
I will be going between the CAD and Protein Power.
Thanks for having this place for those of us with 100 plus to lose.
Soooo much to think about now.
Myrtih