I am starting today. I feel awful, I am getting older, life seems to be going nowhere. I dont mean to sound negative, yet I had a beautiful figure most of my life. NOw I am depressed, alone and fat.
I dont remember exactly how I found this forum, yet I was happy that I did.
It seems that my life is going nowhere, and my self esteem is leaving me.
I just feel hungry, and food is comforting. Food is like a reward to me, a friend.
All my friends deserted me, including my husbands. One was abusive the other left me for a woman that was 15 years older than me, and at the time I had a model figure.
My very best friend deserted me after she "finally" found the "man of her dreams".....
I have been alone now for over 7 years. This may sound "dumb" but I feel as if I have been hiding away punishing myself, I just want out, I feel like I am in prison. I have a tough time going anywhere to meet people because of my weight.
All I ever want to do Is to sit inside, my life is not fun anymore. I just want my life back........I want to feel alive again.
Thank-you for listening, GinaLeanne