This has been an awful emotional week for me for some reason. I was on the verge of tears Mon-Thurs. I felt FAT all those days, saw myself as FAT in the mirror every morning and night, and was feeling just plain crappy about myself, and my life. Then, behold, Friday came along, and now Saturday, and I feel like a million bucks! What the heck??? Anyway, I am wearing my size 7-8 jeans, with a size XL in BOYS hoodie and feeling fantastic about myself again. This is the first time in months that I have had such a severe depression going on! Has anyone else ever had this happen? I am glad it only lasted a few days. I hate feeling so down.

I've had the same kind of week - a couple of weeks now, in fact, but so far I haven't had a swing back the other way. You're not alone in having these kinds of times. Nothing to do, in my experience, but grind through them.

-j.

What's the weather been like? Gloomy days sometimes affect how you percieve yourself. Sunny days sometimes have the opposite effect.

I've also noticed a big difference in how I'm dressed affects my self-perception. If I take the time to pick out a pair of earrings that go with what I'm wearing, try to coordinate my outfit a little bit, take the time to try to "style" my hair, maybe put on a little makeup (or at least remember to put lotion on my face), it makes all the difference in the world how I feel about myself.

I don't really know if it's what I do to fix myself up that affects my mood, or if my mood affects whether I bother to fix myself up.

Isn't it amazing how the NUMBERS can affect our moods like no other thing? If you're wearing 7-8's then you're a good range! Are you sleeping well? I know for me, when I'm short on sleep, my nerves are like a short fuse and everything upsets me.

Were you "hormonal" by any chance the last few days? I notice that the week after my cycle, I am suicidal and depressed (my feelings always turn inward). Now, that I pay attention to it, the better I can be prepared to deal with it. I think it's the worst feeling to suddenly feel so MURDEROUS of either yourself or others, and then out of nowhere - POOF! It's gone and now you're fine and everything is wonderful as if nothing had ever happened. There are some days I feel like the queen of the world and others I feel like dog sh*t and those are the ones you wish could go away forever..... I hope you're still feeling better!

Also, not advisable to stand naked in front of a full length mirror in a hotel during those "bad" days.