God I just love everything... Went out again last night to see grease at the theater...I love going out not worrying about booth size, bathroom stall size, theater seat size.
Most of all I just love between my spiritual practice and my weight loss a fuller connection with my body.
I never, and I mean never been able to move my hips to a rhythm even when I was a skinny child.
I am forever grateful for the weight gain. Yes I did say that.. You know why because even skinny I wasn't connected to my body. the weight gain and this loss has allowed me to come to be connected to my body, to appreciate the vessel that I am is living in.
To really desire to be connected to my body, and feel how it is no matter how it is perceived...
And the fact is, I love being skinny... Not because of society but because I am lighter and feel like a lesser load or burden I am carrying. Giving me more space to have fun in this life and to live this life.
I was so limited before. I am still limited somewhat cause of other health issues. But I am having more fun.
And the BEST is dancing and literally moving my hips in concert with the rhythm of the music.
Weight gain and weight loss for me gave more than a plus or minus opportunity. It gave me the opportunity to know myself on a more intimate level, whether it was physical, emotional, mental or spiritual. It was one of many catalyst that allowed me to become happier, more peaceful and have a greater understanding about myself and how I operate in life.
I love love moving my hips to music and walking tall and proud for who I have and am becoming on all levels