Exercise, I've been avoiding it for years, or starting and stopping after a few days, but I really feel like I have the emotional maturity to actually see it through this time.
I'm been walking 3 miles a day for 3 days so far, I know, not so impressive. I have lost A LOT of weight due to lowcarb and the Lapband surgery that I have. I have plenty of wobbly skin hanging off my body, and its one of the reasons I have decided to start. For Christmas, I got the dual Power 90 and Power 90 X systems, and I plan to add them to my evenings so that I am both walking and working with the P90.
I'm so ready to be a head turner. My whole young life, I was told I would be a heart breaker, and instead, I am mostly a plate cleaner. Anyhow, I am committing myself to 30 days of this plan I have come up with. Secretly, and dont tell anyone this except the whole internet, I am afraid of what will happen, what will I look like, what will I feel like? Will my self esteem finally be on the right path? Will I grow a beard and sound like a man (joke). Will working out cause more lose skin? Will I finally want to be naked in front of someone? I never realized that that exercise was such a big deal, and I never thought that it would drag out all these feelings.
Anyway, I'm probably nuts, but I am scared to death that this time I am going to make this work. Anyone else feel this way?
-A