Wed, Jan-04-06, 13:05
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Senior Member
Posts: 250
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Plan: Schwarzbein
Stats: 194/188.9/165
BF:
Progress: 18%
Location: Maine
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1st Day of CAD need support!
Hello everyone! I am in search of support and some encouraging words from those who have done this before. I have tried other low-carb diets in the past but mostly I have just been a binge/restrictive eater. a compulsive overeater that managed on ocassions to limit my intake so as to maintain a reasonable weight(150-160) but over the last five years I have lost complete control. I am back up to 184 again after white knuckling it down to 167 I have gained it all back in the blink of an eye....well in the course of a 14 day holiday in Ireland and the Holly Daize. I am so sad lately thinking I cannot ever beat this thing inside of me. This lack of control. I feel so weak and beaten. Also scared because if I give up I cannot imagine how much weight I would gain as I seem to just barely be able to hold my own while being mindful of my diet. I have journaled, used relaxation tapes, read articles, books, cereal boxes, watched weight loss shows, cried, prayed, exercised compulsively, fasted, given up , tried again and again until it is just like a constant humm in my brain..maybe today? oops no than maybe tomorrow....but just yesterday I was at the library and I checked out the book CAD. It did not even look interesting to me but I thought What the heck. I took the test and got 100 percent on the addicted part. Could it be true that it is not just me? I am not just a weak individual, compulsive and impulsive making myself sick with food again and again never learning. Could it be more than just not eating? I am afraid to believe that it is not just my own
lack of willpower because if I take the blame off of me I might just have my excuse to give up. But I have to try. In reading the book I could see so much of myself in the case studies. The hiding of eating, the guilt, the anger, the overwelming saddness. I cannot face my life if I have to live like that anymore. I am really hoping this WOE is what I need. So far so good Day one and I have had low carb breakfast and lowcarb lunch and no craving or urge to snack. I actually feel in control. Thanks for reading this long post any advice for a newbie is welcome~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Amy
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