K-mom- there is a place in your lap top, phone or whatever device you use. It's under notifications- go there and hit silent. Because you have a alert every time. You gotta make it silent. Under controls/ and or settings. Good luck on the water.
Alene- So I was thinking about you today. And all the guys in the last 7 years I have dated. I don't remember their names. But I do remember their conversations and what they did for a living. SO..... I have dated a teacher, a cop, a paramedic, nurse, 2 engineers, 2 sales guys, a farmer, a banker, a doctor, a manager for a plant, a artist, a ballet dancer, a guy who over sees the nuclear grid (his job was so interesting), a food engineer (he developed tastes for Kraft), another cop, several corporate guys, a truck driver, a therapist (he was a year), and a guy in-between jobs. I always called them all sweetie because I am bad with names. Most were just a one and done. Most were nice, some were pricks, but all were worth an evening.
Take in mind I have been single for the last 7 years. Always on the look out for the next husband!
I have taken a small break from dating in the last2 months- after Cufflinks- I sorta needed a break. I need to focus on the task at hand- then get back in the game- serious.!
I am getting the nervous willys. I have had angst all dam day. I am off all my vitamins, red meat now, going clears, dam kill me now.
Tomorrow is blood draw and pre-op appt. I want to run. But since I have been off motrin now for the last 24 hours I am in pain. I guess I didn't get just how much I am hurting. Because I pop motrin daily to kill the fibroid pain. Without the motrin I feel it just sitting here. Ever present. I guess I had no idea how much it is effecting me. Pain is the norm- I just dealt with it.
I am very emotional- no motrin, no vitamin D, B. Gray and cloudy. Scared. Then I had the thought- OMG- what if they tilt the table and I FALL OFF........ I know....... get a frekin GRIP!
No wine, no food- just soup. And my over reactive head to play the worst. I am the WORST patient in the world.
Trig- you think you are bad- enter JAZ- !
So sorry to suck up this post with all about me. In a funk / Angst/ what to wake up and believe it will just magically disappear. Not real thinking. I know I should be grateful I have insurance, a great doctor, in great hands..... but still dam scary.
Ok JAZ- pulling it together. Digging for the big girl panties......
BREATHES.... AND BREATHES again. I have willed my Bella to my son in case I don't wake up. Stupid right. She is the most precious thing to me right now.
I got flowers from my work- before I left Friday. Dang I have a sweet job. Those ladies are the best. My boss, offered to come sit during my hospital time. I politely told her my mom would be there. So touching! Makes me cry!
Soup today. - will be my menu for few days- I want my WHOOSH .......
Dang I hurt......
Over and out