...that boat being the weightloss seeking boat. I am here in good ol Northwest FLA and it is hard to find people who 'really' want to do this and stick to it. Also, for some reason people around you tend to try to sabotage things if they see a dramatic change...

I only get sabotaged when people start to notice I am losing weight. All of the attention seems a bit much... And I usually retreat back to my old habits. And that unwanted 'sexual' attention is enough to drive a girl nuts! Even at 245, I get sexual advances daily... It's like, can't you see my wall? Step back from the Wall of Fat.

So I get cold feet when it starts coming off...Any suggestions on how to combat that in my mind. I don't want to be a piece of meat, I have a wonderful man who loves me just like I am but I need to be healthy and the only way to do that is to lose this weight.

Help!

-ginger

Oooh, I know all about self-sabotaging. I'd love to be able to know *why* I do it, but for now I'm just taking it day by day and being extra careful not to fall into old habits (oddly enough, today was a bad day, lol). Looks like we've started out at nearly the same place and have the same goal!

I am comfortable with my self and my weight. I can feel the jealousy seeping out if people when they think "what if she loses it all this time"... Competition? Nah! I just want to be happy and healthy.

Hopefully I will find some wonderful support here and give some as well.

I recently lost 10 pounds and that was enough to get the cat calls a roaring ... At work no doubt, but I fixed that and gained back 5. Really, who's that hurting... Duh...me!

So I will work on it...Dieting just requires so much self absorbsion and I get weird, driven. In a dieting cacoon mode. Compulsion.

I wish all I had to do was be an actress or model and focus on my body fulltime instead of 'working' in the real world.

Make any sense? I am babbling, time to go to sleep.

Thanks for your reply. Maybe we'll talk tomorrow & good luck!!

Especially if you're getting paid for it! I'd love to chat, just drop me a PM. Good luck to you too!