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Posts: 145
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Plan: Moderate low-carb
Stats: 186/140/135
BF:OnebigAB
Progress: 90%
Location: PA baby!
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How do you guys break the binge/purge cycle?
Hi, I've never posted, so let me tell you a bit about myself. Well, I'm an 18 year old female that works in a bakery (making lo-carb tough). I was anorexic for a while, and was at a trim 120-125??, then I ballooned to 184 after becoming a compulsive eater. I discovered anorexia again and then got down to 140, which I wore well considering I'm only 5 "5, much of it was muscle as I worked out allot. Then after a horrible relationship that left me heartbroken and shot my self esteem down the tube, I became bulimic. I'm the worst of the worst... I spent over three hundred dollars on binge food in the span of about two to three months (this is carb food, so you know it had to be allot of food). I binge and purge almost everyday. My weight is almost at 170, and i'm terrified. I watch skinny girls walk by me with their twiggy bodies, and I think, I can never be like them. I try so hard to break the cycle, and I've had success that put me in the 150 range. But as soon as I eat over maybe a couple hundred calories, I assume that 'all or nothing' thinking and I'm killing a box of oatmeal cream pies. I'm in the binge cycle right now, and I cannot believe that i'll ever be thin again. For some reason I have it in my head that I can't do this. How do you break this negative thinking, how did you? I hate being bulimic, but i feel like I can't stop it. ![Help](/images/smilies/help.gif)
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