Jaz- I hope you are having so much fun with Noah today! It is a brisk day today here- breezy and cool. Are you having the nice weather day you were hoping for?
Did your daughter love the sleepers for Ava?
Blue- Super glad that your client meeting went so well and they bought almost all of what you presented. That is fantastic!! Really really good.
So, I see your hog wilder as a blowing off of steam and a celebration, and to me, honestly, not a big deal. And I don't say that in a demeaning way AT ALL because to YOU it WAS a big deal, and you didn't like the way it made you feel. So for me, what would have been a HECK YEAH! felt out of control to you. Big hugs over that because I have felt that and it does not feel good.
I bet your itch is scratched for a while now though and it is behind you. xoxo
Trig- re: phones. I think, honestly, that Droids tend to be "ahead of the curve" in terms of having certain things before Apple. Like facial recognition, for example, that Apple is just coming out with. I am an all-Apple/Mac fangirl though, so I'm partial to Apple Smartphones bc I find them intuitive to use. That being said, they've become more expensive, less innovative and apparently the iOS 11 platform is pretty buggy, so I'm not loving them right this second. Losing Steve Jobs was a hit for them for sure.
As your kid gets more teenagery, I really recommend that you do get a smart phone. My two older kids love to text me, and I love to text them. We have ongoing conversations, some as groups and some not. Today, for example, I heard from DS18 on his field trip to the National Gallery in DC, including a couple of random pictures that he liked. Plus we made plans for tomorrow. With DD I communicated about plans for tomorrow. But it is nice to have that other avenue of communication open with them, KWIM?
When can your DD get her permit (I realize she is youngin' still, but curious. I think all that is earlier in the South. Here, you have to be 15 years and 9 months before you can even apply for a learner's permit. From there you have to have 60 hours of driving time with a supervising adult PLUS ten hours night driving time AND you have to wait nine months before you can take your driving test. So, the earliest to get a license is 16 and a half. And then from there you have a curfew AND you can't drive with anyone under adult age that isn't family for a set period of time as well.
Very different from the day I got my license- the day I turned 16 and then drove myself to school!
Weeds- I hate them. HATE THEM. They suck and no matter what, they keep coming back.
Lori- While my heart goes out to your BIL with his PTSD and it truly, truly does.. that is really really uncool, what he did last night. He should not have been mixing alcohol with his prescription drugs for sure. And you are right- he could have started a fire or something, had he tried to light that candle.
I can only imagine what he was envisioning though, or reliving, and it breaks my heart.
But you are absolutely right and I would have been upset and angry about it nonetheless.
KMom- Lovely, lovely, lovely to read about SD. Truly. Thank you for sharing that moment in your life with us.
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So Blue, in a general sort of reply to your question, I'd say that I am in a period of adjustment and re-seeking balance. The way I describe it is this: I am a Tigger. My set point is to happy. I may go off kilter here or there for a bit, but I trend positive and I reset to positive. My DH and my daughter are Eeyores. Dh more so than DD, because she actively offsets her Eeyore tendency with a desire to see the positive/gratefulness. DH needs a butt kicking to get out of Eeyore mode (or his "perspectacles" adjusted to a better perspective.) DS15 is a fifteen year old "classic teen" so he is all over the map emotionally, but typically I would say he is a mix of Eeyore and Tigger with a slight tilt toward a Tigger. My DS18 (DS19 in two days!) is a true Tigger.
Basically, my fellow Tigger has left the building, and right now I am living with a stressed out, overworked Eeyore and a moody half-Eeyore. The counterbalance-Tigger's absence is making Tigger-Me work overtime to try to be in my usual place of joy/contentedness. Apparently having a fellow joyful person in the house, even if I wasn't with him all the time, kept the overall aura balanced. Does that sound whoo-whoo enough? lol
I really do think it is a thing though. I was sort of alluding to it before- I am very emotionally sensitive. Emotional vibes that have nothing to do with me but that are in the area affect me- it is just a fact of my life. When I lived at home as a kid, my Mom would send me out to check my Dad's emotional temperature so to speak, like a human barometer. Needless to say, they divorced. lol But there were never truer words than things like "you could cut the tension with a knife." I can feel anger radiating off people, sadness, depression, whatever it is and often I don't WANT to feel it but I have trouble repelling it when I am not centered myself.
Okay, way more than I was going to say, but there you go.
And as to how well I stay on plan, it's a good question because I've actually been somewhat more food balanced overall in the past month. Which is likely not what any of you would call balanced but better than it had been over the summer, for example. And overall I'm down around 4# this month give or take, so it shows. But I can absolutely be an emotional eater- but it isn't necessarily linked to negative emotion.
So, I slept like a ROCK last night. Must have partly been the cooler weather. I seldom sleep that deeply though- it was great and a little bit bizarre. I was asleep by around 10:15 and got up a little bit before 9 AM. I cannot even think of the last time I slept that late in the morning.
Talked DH into going with me on a hike today. Wore him out good, too.
It was about four miles and overall not hard, although there is one section that is a pretty rapid ascent. At one point I offered to go get the car, LOL! To his credit he finished it out.
It was a switch for me to hike with someone. I am very much a solo-hiker.. I find it a meditative exercise. At first I was trying to get to my Zen mode and was a bit frustrated but as soon as I switched gears, it was really nice. And by the time we were finished, I had that same happy, relaxed feeling I get from hiking.
Completely on plan today which is NOT usual for me for a Saturday, so yay for that. I had one off plan meal Friday night and will likely be off plan for Sunday Brunch tomorrow for DS18's birthday celebration, but if I keep it to those two meals only this weekend, then that will really be quite a stellar weekend for me.
I can only imagine how long this will be when I click submit. I cringe!