So, I've been posting on here the last few months (after previously posting here in 2005 and losing a lot of weight) and I've kept stopping and starting induction over and over, sometimes only lasting a day on it. But tonight is the last time bad carbs will enter my mouth.

Over the past year, I went through the 'comfortable' stage with my (now ex) boyfriend and so my weight went up about 15 pounds. Then we had an extremely messy break-up and I went up a further 15 pounds from comfort eating. Now, I haven't mentioned I've also picked up the habit of occasionally making myself sick after bingeing since this break-up, and that used to occur about 3 times a week. Not after every meal, but if I felt down, I'd think bugger it, I'm gonna eat all this chocolate and then get rid of it.

Recently these episodes have gotten a lot more regular, despite now being with someone new. But now these bingeing and purges are happening because I want to lose weight and feel more comfortable within myself and around my new boyfriend.

I've realised this is not the lifestyle I want to have, not only is this vicious circle not actually making me lose weight, I'm looking ill, feeling ill and definitely not in a happy mood. SO ATKINS HERE I COME. I never used to binge and purge while on Atkins in 2005, and I certainly felt so much healthier. So I guess this post is something for me to look back on and read my determination back to me if I ever get a thought of doubt.

(Also, for anyone concerned about my bulimia tendencies, I am also seeking help for that. Even though I strongly believe eating an Atkins lifestyle will cut that out completely)

Wish me luck!

I have never admitted this to anyone, but I have done the same thing when I have lost control and binged. Not regularly, but I have done it in the past and recognize what a problem it is. I absolutely commend you for your honesty. I wish you the best in your current experience with Akins and hope that you are able to find the program that works for you. I have found low carb to be the only way for me, although I now do a slightly different version with South Beach. You can do this and I wish you many happy experiences in the future.

Well, congratulations on taking this step. Just remember, you want to be healthy and attractive and a binging, purging person isn't too appealing to a new boyfriend. You can do this the healthy way!

The nice thing about lower-carb eating is that you don't get the cravings for sweets and carby things - thereby reducing the tendency to binge in the first place. This will go a long way to help in your recovery. Of course, you'll want to get some help as well (counselling, support etc.), but I really do think low-carb is a great way of eating for anyone battling this disorder.

Getting in a good level of protein, some healthy fats, along with a nice selection of nutrient-loaded vegetables can only help make things much better. Good, healthy food will serve you well in this journey. Repair, restore and renew.

Best wishes for your recovery. Glad you came back