Tue, Apr-15-08, 06:34
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New Member
Posts: 2
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Plan: somersize
Stats: 200/200/150
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Thanks, ajcohn. I am also an M&M addict. I just went back on this yesterday, but already feel more in control today. I guess it's like "drying out." I have decided this is going to be a lifetime battle, and I am just going to get through one day at a time. I'm always looking way down the road, and that seems to be what screws me up. Then I think it's okay to cheat for now, because I can get back on tomorrow. All I know is this has been controlling my life for 20 years now. And I'm sick of it. If that's one thing I want to do before I die- is get back to where I used to be. I was a skinny healthy size 7 or 9 in High School, and during a 16 year abusive marriage, ate my way to a 16. I had no friends at all, and was so miserable. But, that is the past, and excuses, excuses. It really did change me, and I am trying so hard to mentally be who I used to be. This is the biggest hurdle. When anything goes wrong, I just want to crawl right back into all that cushion, and protect myself. ajia
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