Good morning everyone. I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the summer!
The past 10 days have been a rollercoaster of emotions.
I'm trying to go back to school to finish my bachelor's degree in public health and go on to PA school. I thought I had it lined out that I could move my 5th wheel on to my dad's property (for free) but learned that won't work now because his septic system is too taxed as it is. To make matters worse, I won't be able to receive federal loans to help pay for my expenses because my trade school put me over the limit. So, what originally was a plan to not work and take 16-18 credits per quarter has now changed to not going to school for a year, working to save as much money as I can, and trying to find a place to live. If I can save enough money, I'll try to go back to school next year.
Ugh, I'm stressed.
To make matters worse, work life has been terrible so I'm walking on eggshells shells. I finally learned I will be moved from my verbally abusive provider to something else but I won't know exactly what until Tuesday. This could be terrible news since one of the options is working 3 days a week until 7pm--I have a kid at home on summer break. I'm already feeling guilty spending most of the day away from her now.
So, food confessions of a fat girl: I've not been A'72 at all. I've actually eaten anything I can get my hands on. I feel like crap, I look like crap, and I'm sure my attitude is crap.
I plan on starting today! I'm off for he next 4 days, and I'm going to get some things in order. I'm going to start A'72 today. No matter what happens next week, I know I won't be with my abusive provider anymore. There IS light at the end of the tunnel!!
I know everything will work out, I'm just down because it all hit me this week. I have a good support system for when it does all work out, so there's that!
If you pray, please pray for me and my daughter. I need a (cheap) place to put my 5th wheel, I need a good paying job, and I need Lily to get into a good school. If all of these things work out, I know I could go back to school next year and move forward with life!! Right now I'm feeling stuck in a rut.
Thanks for letting me unload, sometimes it's better to see it all in words to know where the holes are.