Well...where to start. I was not a big girl but in hs after an incident with an awlful date I began to binge and purge. I didn't eat huge amounts but I would plan for it! After too years I stopped the behavior and gained weight. Since I have been on the thin side but always wanted to lose just 5lbs etc...
My weight crept up over the years and after ea child it was harder to lose. One thing that I have noticed...if I have an all or nothing thinking it sets me up for a binge. I have one thing then feel like "oh well what is the use I might as well ejoy this and this and this" Then the guilt comes then sometimes a purge sometimes not (usually not)
I was on CAD and you would think that a reward meal would set me up for a binge...at first my RM's were large and I felt like oh I only have one hour I need to eat everything I can...after about a week or two that feeling went away and I was able to eat slowly and enjoy my food. Sometimes I get that thinking back of the panic so I switch plans to allow for some fruit or cereal so I don't feel deprived...that has really made a difference for me!
Getting rid of the thought of "oh I failed, and All or nothing" has helped me so very much!!! I try to keep on the lower carb side to avoid cravings but allow myself some extras.
I am glad you started this thread. I know it is a problem for so many...I thin OA would be great. They don't have one here where I live though.
Kerri...loved what your mom said!!! hee hee. I am trying to accept myself as a fullfigured girl. You know that has really helped me. I have bought new clothes that fit well and look good on me at the weight I am right now. It is several sizes bigger than I was several years ago but I have decided that that is going to be ok. Some days are easier than others. (LIke when I see a really thin co-worker!!!!) But I just tell myself it is ok to be a chubby little women (I am 5ft) My dh likes me the way I am so who else do I have to please but me? I am telling myself that I need to focus of eating well, moving more and doing situps
So far it is working. (AND I lost 4 lbs!)
Deirdra, I agree about the intolerances!!! I see that certain foods make me retain water!!! I try to watch which grains I eat (if any) and eat fruit as my carb. I also have to watch milk...I do eat yogurt and take probiotics and that has helped too!!!!
Good to meet all of you