I always thought I would be able to lose weight if I 'really put my mind to it'. What a joke on myself because I have come to realize I have a sugar addiction! I never used to eat much sweet food until I went through a very stressful life event, became depressed, and gained 80 lbs. It happened very quickly and I was in total denial that it was happening at all. Fast forward 6 months, the fog lifted and I was moving on and rebuilding my life, just 80 lbs heavier. But now, after 5 years I was never able to lose the weight and keep it off. My body and brain were not my own anymore. My brain tells me I have to have bad food and even engages in a level of self deception that I cannot recognize at that time. Its like a have a mental illness! I have lost 20 lbs one time and another time 50 lbs,,, but it all came right back because I was using diet pills to trick my brain. Hunger and the need to eat are a beast to me that I fight every second of every day and I am losing the battle.

Ok, I have admitted I am a food-a-holic. I need help before its too late. My self esteem is at an all time low, my health is suffering and I have pain all the time for no good reason.

It is time for me to quit being a pansy and take charge. I refuse to be beaten by the demon in my brain driving me and ruining my life. I know I can get control and I know I will need to learn to use the right weapons for this epic battle to regain control of myself.

I have been reading and researching everything I can about low carb eating and life-style changes. There seems to be so much knowledge and experience here and I am ready to learn. I am on my way to buy a notebook for a food journal and to start stocking my pantry with the right foods.

I feel hope I can make it this time. Thank you all