CRICKET - Wow, I ALMOST had a moment like you are describing yesterday! With the SA that is. I was at the store buying frigging double chocolate muffins for Ed, because he needed his flipping snacks, and I was seriously looking at the Atkins bars!!!!! But they all have so many carbs, whether SA or not, and I just KNEW that if I bought a box, I would have eaten ALL of them in seconds flat!!!! So I hit Fat Paulette in the head with a rock and sent her back to her cage instead!!!!
She was whispering in my ear, saying things like "one will not hurt you". But I KNOW HER BETTER THAN THAT!!! She LIES!
I ended up getting a bag of radishes and some Ranch mix to add to our sour cream instead. I had 4 radishes last night with the dip, about 3 Tbl worth. And that total was about 8 carbs. It was more than I normally have, but TA DA! I had a loss this morning!!!! If I would have listened to Fat Paulette, I would have woke up with a gain most likely, and a confession to make.
That would have devastated me. I am SO GLAD I came to my senses.
Well, I hope your bagel and Atkins bars don't hurt you too bad. I know how you really want to get a few lbs off!!! Your foods sound so boring and puny. If I tried to eat like you I would die of starvation.
I would not be able to do it for very long.
That tumor of yours sounds bad. I hope the new doctor can help you with this. You still have to wait until the end of the month to see him, no?
Have a good night and maybe in the am things will not be as bad as your think.