Sat, Apr-07-07, 10:52
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Senior Member
Posts: 2,037
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Plan: Atkins-ish
Stats: 168/128/115
BF:
Progress: 75%
Location: Manhattan, NY!
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My face is not round!
In 2005, when I was just 8 pounds away from my goal of 115, I left Atkins and went back to my old eating habits. I literally binged on whatever I wanted. I would eat dinner with my dad, then go to my mom's house and tell her I hadn't eaten, so that she'd take me to a restaurant. There, we'd get a three course menu. We didn't share. I gained all the weight back in a few months, plus 10 more over the next year. After many failed attempts at low-calorie, low-food diets, I lost all hope. At 17(!), I resigned myself to the "fact" (in my mind) that I'd be overweight for the rest of my life. I stopped looking in the mirror. I didn't like my body or my face, but I accepted both. It was simply a "fact", embedded in my DNA, that I had no cheekbones or chin.
I've recently begun noticing myself again in the mirror. What strikes me the most is the change in my face. I DO NOT HAVE A ROUND FACE! It's transitioning into a heart! I got out my driver's license just now. The picture was taken in 2005 at my lowest weight, 123 pounds. Sure enough, my face was not round then! It was a heart, with prominent cheekbones, and a defined chin. The fat is shedding, and my face is starting to show again. What I accepted before is now unacceptable. I'm nearly halfway to goal, and my face is not round anymore. I can't explain how much this realization means to me.
Fall 2006, 156 pounds Today, 138 pounds
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