I've lost a lot of weight. It's a hard thing for me to deal with surprising enough. I was a big girl for a long time and being smaller has it's own issues. When I reflect back to when I was heavy, I though about my addictions to food and how they haven't really changed. My diet has changed but I still think of food all the time and I still think of dinner when I have lunch.

I had dinner with an old friend last night. I had not seen her in a while so our conversation focused on how I did it. She listened to me! Every bit of it and I poured my heart out to her and she seemed to understand. She has normal eating habits but when she was a teenager, she had to be treated for an eating disorder. She said, "I understand what it's like to diet and to be obsessed with food. I have an eating disorder still and even though I eat three nice meals a day, It's a battle. I never though of myself as someone with an eating disorder but it makes sense. It was refreshing to not feel so alone for the first time. She emailed me today and told me that she would always be there if i needed to talk

Just reading your post I can see how far you have travelled. Good progress.

It is often the case that your feelings (heart) and facts (mind) are a little out of sync.

I am happy for you. Keep going - lots more buddies on the way.
Take care.