Okay....so i had this brilliant idea..that once i lost 50 pounds....i'd be the most confident girl ever....HAHAHA. What i'm finding...is that the more weight i lose....the more emotional problems i am uncovering. And i am also finding that my OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) is manifesting itself into somewhat of an eating disorder...its so wierd. I honestly never thought i'd be one to have an eating disorder....but the more weight i lose....the worse it gets. Its like...no matter how much weight i lose...i still feel as though i look the same. I can take a picture of myself....and ten seconds later look at that pic and myself in the mirror...and i see two different people...although its the same image. And mealtime is getting tough...because although my stomach is growling and i want to eat...once i get the food to my mouth....i have to force myself to eat it....its like food repulses me....its what made me fat in the first place....why am i putting it into my mouth. This isn't 100% of the time....but more like half of the time....which is still annoying becausenever in my life have a felt like this. Ugh...anyone ever have this happen to them?

I think a lot of us discover underlying emotional issues as we lose our "shield". There's tons of good books and help out there on the subject. I know Potatofree likes Dr. Phil..... worth a read.

Take care of yourself!

Julie

Thanks! I'll look into that....and ill browse around potato free's journal