A Matter of Choices
I feel bad for Barbara because I saw her comments for what it was. I did not see negativity. I am here for one reason. I made a choice to be here. I choose to surround myself with people who are willing to tell me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear.
Everyday, for 10 years of living with my diabetes, I made choices. I must admit, some of my worst choices in the beginning, I didn't even realize were bad choices at all. Being uniformed does not help one go down the right path. And, I am not speaking as someone who has only made right choices lately.
I live in a home where I'm the only fat guy, the only person who has to watch what they eat. I can't begin to count the number of times I used the members in my household as my excuse for failure, because the wrong type of food was in the pantry and fridge. I also used the excuse of my culture being one in which life is always celebrated with lots of food. I could probably list many more excuses I made for myself, but excuses are only bad choices, no matter how good the excuses sounds.
I started doing some research in the summer to find out how to get motivation, determination and belief in one positive way to eat for the rest of my life. I made a choice in October, just a few weeks ago. I want to live healthier, with less worry and less fat. I choose to eat low carb/high fat not because all evidence points to it, but because I know it works for me. It never failed me, I only failed it.
Somehow, this time, I sense my choice is final. I feel like I am out of denial. It doesn't matter that there are brownies and cream cheese cake that are in our home and ready to eat at this very moment. I could name a lot of other foods laying around that would put me back on the high carb track, which of course would be a very BAD choice.
This morning, I think I learned something new. I would like to share it with whoever reads this. I normally eat about 1 to 1 1/2 hours after I wake up. This morning, I ate about an ounce of cracklings (pork skins) within 15 minutes of waking up, then I ate breakfast an hour later. I could only eat half of what I ate yesterday morning and the previous mornings since I made my choice to eat low carb a couple of weeks ago. I feel that eating some fat an hour prior to a meal made me feel full sooner. I am going to experiment with this prior to all my meals for the next week or so. I'll report back if there is something to this. It is extremely rare for me to leave food on a plate and when I left over half my breakfast on the plate and I was feeling completely satisfied, I still feel WOW! I feel like I made a very good choice today.
Now, I believe the lady who was "whining" is reading this. I apologize, I just can't remember your name and I don't know how to go back and get it without losing all I already wrote. I am not in support of using that word when addressing anyone. Perhaps Barbara could restate herself, such as, "we've all made excuses and from reading your post, it sounds like you are making an excuse". Any excuse is just our trying to justify our making a bad choice. My darling lady, I know, because I've done everything you said in your post. Do as you wish, but you're in a safe place here. I won't give up on you and neither will anyone else, but you need to first, not give up on yourself. You're #1 to you! Now, come back and post again, as we need you as much as you need us.
We know what we need to do and we need to hear others tell us in their own way, hey, try and make a better choice, it is your life and your health that you're putting at risk when you make a bad choice. Forget what everyone else is doing, thinking and saying and just make a good choice for yourself.
Cajunboy47
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