Yes, of course, I mean YOU are the good conscience, but also a kind of physical embodiment of what I could have been, etc. etc. Yes, I'll be glad eventually. Years from now If I live that long Seriously, I remember vividly when I quit smoking how furious I was at myself that I didn't do it sooner, because it was so easy. (Easier than this, by far. Quitting smoking was a one-time decision. It's much easier to stop doing something than to actively do the right thing minute by minute through the day.) That lasted two years. Then I forgot how dumb I had been and was just happy that I finally got smart

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Have a great day, Ruth.