Wow, that's kind of sad. But don't despair. I got fat after I moved in with my boyfriend but he decided he liked me better on the fat side. That made me feel it was OK to overeat. It was great after always being on a diet, but I let it get out of control. Now I feel like I have to lose weight because I can't do things I used to but I'm going to do it for me although I know I'll never be a size 4 again. Any way, what I wanted to say is that there are guys like my husband (we got married last year) who are attracted to heavy women, you just have to find them.