Welcome Callie! Yes, having 100+ to lose is so much more of a challenge than just wanting to lose 10 pounds to fit into the "skinny" jeans.

I too have seen "awful" before photos here and elsewhere that I would kiss the ground and shout Hallelujah to look like! So much is relative isn't it? When I was in my 20s and hit 160 pounds I felt like a fat hog. Now I can only wish!

You'll find lots of wonderful support on this site, so coming here often really helps. I'd love to know more what you learned about intuitive eating and where. If you look for Cathy B. here she has done a lot with intuitive eating.