wow...i started this thread weeks ago and haven't even been able to get online much to keep up with it. glad you guys are still here! my meds are stabilized now...i'm taking 100mg of topomax and 50mg of zoloft at night and since i started taking those doses i've only had one episode which was very very mild at that....and it's been nearly a month, compared to 4 episodes or more a day. i feel more like myself than ever before...and i was scared the meds would take away "me"...wow did i never realize that it wasn't even me before the meds. glad to see i'm not alone with this..it's not easy....but i'm seeing that it sure isn't the end of the world