IM NOT DOING WELL ON MY DIET, EVERY DAY I HAVE TO HAVE A BOTTLE OF TWO OF CHARDONAY OR SHIRAZ AND ON BINGE DAYS I GO FOR A LITTLE LESS THAN A LITER OF RUM (ON OFF[WORK] DAYS). IM FUNCTIONAL, ONLY THOSE CLOSE TO ME KNOW OF MY ADDICTION, STILL ITS ALL BAD AND I TRULY BELIEVE IT LEADS TO MY DIET DEMISE, LET ALONE MY OVERALL HEALTH. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO SELF CONTROL, NO WILLPOWER AND I HATE DRINKING AS MUCH AS I HATE BEING FAT!! HOW COULD YOU HATE SOMETHING SO MUCH AND STILL DO IT? PLEASE HELP ME, WHAT CAN I DO TO COMBAT THIS ADDICTION ALONG WITH MY FOOD ADDICTION? I WANT SO BAD TO BE IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE, IVE BEEN SPIRALING DOWN FOR 7 YEARS NOW, IM NOT HEALTHY OR HAPPY AT THIS WEIGHT.