Hi Teena,
I totally understand that is why I joined 12 step to keep from feeling this way all the time. I am 50 so I have been dealing with this along time too.
I don't see the person of 90 as being unsucessful getting sick at that age, most people don't even reach that age. the woman that lived that long didn't worry about those things because there was more real food and not so much junk food when she was younger. Years ago people were more active too.

I plan ahead, weigh and measure my food, commit it to my sponsor and let it go. I don't dwell on it and take it one day at a time.
Hang in there I know you will find a Lc way of life you will be comfortable with and can live with.


Annie