Jedswife -- Wow, sounds like things have been hectic for you... I also know what it's like to lose your "Militant" attitude. They say you don't change your life unless you're excited or mad, unfortunately for me, I'm more motivated when I'm mad... so when I loose my "Militant" attitude, I spend a couple days getting mad about it, then I'm usually able to get back on track.

Don't give up you can do it.