Hi Sylviek, boy do I know where you're coming from. I guess it's a question of self esteem, which I have never had. Having just been fired from my job for no real goo reason, I fell that I am constantly being judged. I don't have any answers or suggestions for you except to try to keep your head high and believe in yourself, if you have this new good thing happening, it's because it is meant to happen, just go with it and make the best of it, the rest will follow.